It has been a journey for me to embrace God’s grace in my life, but He showed it to me with such sweet love and tenderness. I hope this helps you as much as it has helped me. It’s hard for humans to understand grace because it’s something SO BIG that our minds and hearts can’t understand. One of the enemy’s greatest weapons is guilt, we are all sinners so it’s very easy for him to use that sin to make us feel guilty and feel like we are falling out from grace. But there is some good news… I have come to understand that God’s grace is like an ocean… it’s impossible to fall from it, if you are in the middle of the ocean you can’t fall out of it, all you can do is go deeper. Every time we make a mistake and feel like we are falling out from grace, we are not… we are just going deeper into that unending ocean of grace and love. Your sin can’t take you away from God’s love, NOTHING CAN SEPARATE YOU FROM GOD’S LOVE… Romans 8:38-39.
Sometimes I get mad at myself because it feels like I know that God’s grace will always take me back, and I feel like it’s not fair, I hate myself whenever I repeat a mistake or a sin, because I know God already forgave me for doing that a while ago, and now I’m doing it again… I let the enemy start telling me lies and make me feel like God’s grace is not enough, like I’m overusing it. Sometimes I’m even scared of talking about His grace because it feels like people will start sinning like crazy because they know God’s grace is everlasting. First of all, God’s grace is not a limited resource, it’s infinite. Jesus taught that we have to forgive 70 times 7, which means there’s no limit for forgiveness. It doesn’t matter how many times you sin or how big it is, God’s grace will always take you back, and there’s no way I can unsay what is true, even when I’m afraid of saying that out loud because I can’t fully understand God’s mercy and infinite love. That being said, even when God’s grace is infinite and real, consequences from sin are also real, this means sin will drive you away from God’s perfect will for your life; it will limit your connection and growth with His Holy Spirit and will make you unhappy. God’s grace purpose is making you strong in your weakness, knowing that once a certain area of your life was full of sins and mistakes but now is all clean and full of grace. This can only happen when you surrender every area of your life to Him, even when it feels like He is all silent, even when it seems like it’s never going to happen. When you surrender everything to Him, trusting that He is in control of your weakness, your mistakes, your dreams, your heart, your family, your finances, and your future, there is when you get strengthened in your weakness.
Every time you feel like you can’t understand God’s grace, every time you find yourself covered in sin and shame, run to the cross and you will understand it a little better, HE rather died than letting you go. This is why even death can’t drive you away from His love; NOTHING can separate you from His grace because he defeated every possibility of losing you by surrendering His life. Remember, grace is like an ocean, you can’t fall out of it; all you can do is go deeper.